The strange turn of my life

Of late i just can't explain the twist my life has taken.
I am not the old very charming and outgoing person i used to be.
No more pretty girls around me. Of late its the not so good looking,
very hard working and ready for marriage chics that seem to be attracted
to me. All these are so well off financially and holding very influential
positions of responsibility. All these ladies i met as my clients and due
to my excellent customer care skills we became friends. I wonder if they
were never educated on the fact that biz and pleasure dont mix.
To be precise three of these ladies have confessed their feelings and the
idea of us being an item and an envy to many.

Am wondering where did all my bu-lovely, ready to have fun, friends with
benefits go. Am working now, dress so fine, very very mature, focused, very set carrer wise with a place of my own. I have never lost ma rich sense of humour but things are falling apart. Back in the days i didnt have all these things but " I was the man".
About ma social life, i don't have a thing for classy places anymo. I go out
almost everyday of the week but it is to my kafunda in ntinda and then home.
I always keep company of the boys and its only on a few weekends that i may
be in company of a very tight marking old time fling.
There is a way these mamas have failed to let me go even when i dont call them, don't flatter them as i used to my bu-flings, and never remember their birthdays. One is 38years with a 8 year old son and believes we can still have something. She has pleaded with me to keep one of her rides but ive refused giving all kinds of excuses. She promised to fuel and service it on a regular. That one ive refused to fall for. I can still stand the conductors' smelly armpits untill i buy my own ride. These ladies shower me with niceties and i feel so bad coz i heard some ladies discuss that men are nowadays detoothers as well.
Am getting so fed up with this life. When i meet the bu-flashy chics i simply look(not stare), appreciate and move on without saying a word. These are the nice things am looking for in life but my once over flowing confidence is gone. Those who knew me a few years back can testify.
Am very worried coz i seem to be loosing grip on life. I just cant say anything nice to anyone, rarely appreciate good things, and don't spend on people no more. This is because i dont have anyone to do goods things to and for. Only nice thing left in me is the "please" and "thank you" words and an expensive gift to ma kid sis once in a while. Otherwise am so indifferent.

Just wanna get back to ma old self. The old party loving geezer with so many niceties around me. Yes, it was expensive but less taxing and worrying than being sorrounded with old "minyamas" all waiting for the day ill propose to them. You may wonder why i dont assure these ladies but i have. Told them of my fiancee and 2 kids living in France and coming to Uganda on holiday on January 3rd 2009, but none seems to remember or show signs of withdrawal.( Okay it is a lie, i have no kids but truth is "SHE" is coming for holiday on that date)

Its only last evening that i seemed to regain my old touch. Went to the cinema to catch "Quantum of Solace" and met some of my old nice things. Managed to interact with a few of them and get their digits. Hope that is the return of my favourite personality otherwise i am loosing it.

At times i wonder if i had too much fun too early in life or that this is the reward i get for the very many hearts i unintentionally broke years back.

Anyone been here before? Advise please