17 Years

20th April, 2012 marks exactly 17 years since you went to meet the Good Lord. Saying that I Miss You, would be an understatement.

About 3 weeks back Jajja-girl came to be with you. You know am now left with no Jajja down here. They are all up there with you.

Two days back, I had this really lovely dream. Me and you together and I was a kid again. You spanked me for being naughty but I liked it. It was so emotional I think I cried in my sleep. No big boys don't cry.

Brenda, Emme and James (Jaymo) are all big now. Jaymo never got a chance to bask in your motherly love. He was about 2 years when you left. Dad has done a great job. He took up your place very well. No; he didn't abandon his fatherly role. He's been a great daddy and "mummy".

Brenda is engaged and has a lovely baby son called Isiaih. Isaiah lights up evryone's life. Jaymo is baby sitter uncle and the two look so alike. Dad asks Brenda to take Isaiah home every other day. He can never get enough of him. Kale if you were here, you'd also take turns with him. You'd love and cherish that little thing. He's growing up so fast a thing that scares me. At 6 months he walks while holding on to stuff. He's also growing teeth. What are we raising here.

I won't wait for you to ask the "million dollar question"....No I am not yet married. I am hitting the big-30 at the end of July but am still single. Munnange long stories. If you were here, "would you have pushed me into getting married and starting my own family?" Haha, no you wouldn't. But one day soon, I will walk down that road. No worries. For now let me be making some more money. Things are not like back then in your days, broke guys have no place in our world.

By the way, your birthday is coming soon, June 15th. Do you ever celebrate it with Jesus and fam? Nowadays I have two birthdays, yours and mine. So I am a June and July baby.

One last update, at the start of this year 2012, I decided to renew or find some spiritual growth. I joined a church called Mavuno Church. Mavuno means harvest. I remember your swahili was sketchy, haha. Mom, this is like the best decision I ever made. I go to church every Sunday, I completed a 10 week kinda bible study called Mzizi which translates to Roots. I have met the most awesome bunch of guys. Our church slogan is "Real people, with Real Issues before a Real God". So cool. After Mizizi, we have now formed a Life Group. This is meant to help us in our Spiritual growth, personal growth, rediscover our life and its purpose, career growth, accountability in life actions and finances, as well as people to talk to and trust. Mom, I can't say am a righteous person now but am much better. I still have plenty of flaws but life is much improved. These guys have accepted me the way I am. Real people. I am learning to read the Bible and pray.

I won't bore you with my work. Nothing to write home about but I love what I do and I need the money.

Kati I have to go.

Love you mom. Till we meet again.